Wednesday, July 22, 2015
I have been reading Freckle's latest post. If you haven't read it, here is a link: Rape, Cosby Sympathizers and the Patriarchy
Seriously, just read it. Freckles has an incredible ability to just say it like it is, and give things clarity with her perspective.
Unfortunately, my brain has been completely preoccupied with this stuff lately. All of it, the apologists, the predators, the people who looked the other way, and the assholes who keep this patriarchal victim-shaming rape culture alive, inside the Family and elsewhere.
No, I'm not above addressing the trolls who imply that I am lying, or enjoyed being raped and want to be a victim. The truth is, it completely infuriates me, so much so that I am afraid to address it in fear that it might completely overtake me. I have chosen to be anonymous for a lot of reasons. However, that choice has consequences, such that I cannot afford to acknowledge that anger or the actions it might drive me to take. Like walking up to certain people and going bat-shit-crazy on them, confronting people openly. If I let myself get angry I may not be able to control myself. I just can't go there right now.
But I really don't know what the hell to do with it sometimes. And there is still my part in it. No matter what anyone says, my silence allowed others to be hurt, and this is the only way I can make sure everyone knows, even if it's too late.
In the meantime, I've used my energy to dig up more papers from the labyrinth of boxes in my attic. I found the transcript of the tape Jack made at the women's request for clarity regarding who a priest can marry.
It's interesting to read about the marriage Freckles mentioned because he was very clear in this transcript that a marriage between a priest and a non-virgin can not happen, and that there is no going back once semen has entered the woman. Just more hypocrisy.
Following are some emails from women in the Family who had some questions and concerns. These are from discussions that happened during monthly Rosh Chodesh meetings. Notice that rape is mentioned, and how horrible that situation would be for the woman. This was a real concern, which should tell you enough.
I don't have the answers that were given in print.
However, the response was the same as the original tape: there is no room for interpretation. It is what it is. That's it.
Of course, that leaves the woman to carry the burden of what was done to her for the rest of her life. The man? No consequences, spiritual or otherwise.
And I have a burning question that nobody seems to want to acknowledge or answer. To those Family members who are still involved and have commented before:
Please tell me, is George D still a part of the family? Are his sons? Have they been left-sided, or did they leave on their own? Did you know about the things they did already, or did you read about it first on one of these blogs? I really want to know. I want to make sense of it one way or another. Why won't anyone acknowledge this?